Friday, May 15, 2015

Mama

Tonight our little girl called me Mama.  And my heart melted.

She has been with us for about 3 weeks now and Ryan and I have both fallen in love with her very quickly.  She is quirky, has a happy personality, is naturally athletic and loves to sing and giggle.  She is loving and is becoming a beautiful little girl.  Even on her rough days she brings joy to our home. She loves to look for rainbows and you would think it was Christmas when she sees one - like this one we saw on our way to Helena.


And if I leave my phone alone I often find at least 30 selfies that she has taken while I'm cooking dinner or doing laundry.  Or I find pictures like these



We initially met little R a couple of months ago when a woman I go to church with called me to say they had a girl living with them that is up for adoption. She had heard we would like to adopt and was wondering if we were interested in getting to know little R.  We thought about it for a few days and then agreed to get to know her a little bit before deciding if we would like her to be placed with us. She came over for visits and we played and colored and went to the park and did all the things a little girl likes to do. Both Ryan and I thought it would be a good thing for her to come live with us. 

So we took the leap!  She was sad to leave her last home but is adjusting to us as her 'parents'.  She has been used to having multiple kids around in previous homes and would like to have other kids around to play with. We try to keep her busy after school and have begun looking at extra curricular activities.   


I was very selfishly excited to be able to truly celebrate Mother's Day this year.  It is still a bitter-sweet feeling, but not nearly as painful as previous years.  Having little R come home with a little plant meant more to me than any other gift I ever could have received. 

Adoption is a long and arduous process in the Foster Care world and we are not entirely sure what the future will bring.  But we are excited to be going in the direction of providing a "forever family" for little R.  She is required to live with us for at least 6 months before we can even begin the adoption process.  And then the process itself can take at least 6 months to a year.  Or longer from what we've heard.  We do not talk to little R about adoption and probably won't have that conversation with her until we are a little more confident about everything.

There are a number of issues involved with this specific situation and both Ryan and I are fully aware that anything can happen within the next 6 months.  I feel like I'm constantly holding my breath right now just waiting for something to happen in this process. A few people have asked us if we are planning on adopting her.  I tend to stiffen up a little when people ask.  Not because I don't want to talk about it, but because I am so incredibly scared we are going to get our hearts broken. It is hard to not want to protect my heart and remain a little reserved about it. But I have felt very good about having her with us and for now that is enough. We are not counting on the system working in our favor - but we are hopeful! Ultimately, we are just happy to be able to offer little R a stable and safe home.  


2 comments:

  1. I love this, Anna. You are amazing and I hope and pray the best for you and your family!

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  2. Thank you!!!! We appreciate all the positive thoughts and prayers :)

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